We can see the end...or the beginning

Well just wanted to say that now that I can see the end of this pregnancy, I am starting to feel a little overwhelmed. We are so excited to see Jack and hold him and start our lives together, but at the same time I know that as long as he is inside of me he is safe...all I have to do is take care of me and he is healthy. Once he is born a whole new care taking will begin, and it scares me and saddens me knowing that I do not have my Mom close by. I have already been thinking about what it is going to be like to not feel Jack move inside of me anymore, it has to be one of the most empty feelings in the world. I felt Jack the first time at 13 weeks, so I have been enjoying the feeling of life for a long time now, and then to go to no movement has to be strange. I know that the joy of having him in my arms must help that in some ways, but still I haven't had to share Jack with anyone else for 9 months, he has been all mine, and in just a short 5 or 7 days I will have to share him with the world, this is not my favorite of thoughts (sounds terrible, huh?). Well, I just needed to share my thoughts and feelings....